Your Half of Me, Yet None of Me

either I express myself with rage
or simply push you away
how I wish a day where my inner child
didn't feel like it was still searching for closure for endless miles
where you are there when I needed you to stay
and where you always painted my world okay
time would pass by and by
until I learned to stop the cry
your half of me
yet none of me
you flow in my stem
is a truth I at times dread
what was back then is now an image hard to see
as I keep it under lock & key
memories I unleash when I urge a peek
at a past that was present and not what used to be
I try to move on
but something is constantly wrong
I tell myself to let those memories free
but the little girl inside of me
says ....
"she misses her daddy"