My Tale

Violence is stirring
Everyone feels it
No one touches it
They take it
Spin it into a lasso
And rope me like a pig
We're all alone now
Or the witnesses are blind
You hit me
I fall to the floor
Your foot collides with my head
Once, twice
My head hits the locker
Twice, three times
I lose track
Their words are cruel
Soft
No one hears but me
They know I hear
They see the pain in my eyes
It feeds them
To repeat it, say the worst
'Til I believe it
'Til it's ingrained in my soul
FatWhaleWorthlessUglyStupid
DumbUselessUnlovableRetarded
Don'tDeserveToLiveKillYourself
NoOneWillMissYouStupidFuck
NoOneWillEverLoveYouIdiot
UglyBitchFatHippoCowPigWhale
The words blur together but
The meaning is clear
I am nothing
And they beat me like a slave
Not like a foe
I never did anything to them
I never did anything wrong
They picked me out
Made me the victim
Whispered in my ear
Beat me to a pulp
Glued my jaws together
Shoved me out to the world
With suicide on my lips
And blood on my wrists
It was never my fault
It didn't begin with me
Everything I am now
Is just their words
Carved into my heart
Chiseled into my marrow
Until I am not me
I am what they made me
I was unformed clay
If I am worthless
It's because they stripped me
If I am strong
It's because they tested me
If I am unlovable
It's because they hated me
And if I am a bitch
It's because they deserve it