My Struggle

I know I need to write when
since I feel the need to fight.
They all know something’s bothering me
but there’s nothing wrong with me
and there’s no time
to find out what it is.
It’s not all that obvious
to see what’s happening
I think I’m having a relapse
but I don’t wanna go back
to how things were before
I know I love him
and I know it’s fair game
but why do I feel like I’m going insane.
Like I don’t know up from down.
My mind keeps spinning round and round.
I am lost wanting to be found.
Basically in search for a common ground
Just waiting on this lost item to be found
It’s my heart
that’s falling apart
I’m so confused
I need someone to help me figure out what to do.

Zokie....