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Time
To build that wall back up again!

For months now every time
You came near
I mentally blocked you out.

This cycle
seems to get better
just to remind me.
that a cycle never ends.

My mind spins and spins
in alternate directions.
Seeking a happiness that is lost
in the parallels of time.

Finding my only peace
is to transcend into my anger,
diminish my pain
into those that hurt me,
those that hold me down.

Levels of hatred and love
Intertwine,
suffocating the me that is me.

I try, I try
and fight free
a lost cause
on this path of agony.

Have I lost the battle within myself?
Do I give up or choose to give in?

The love in me
is the one who pretends
not to hear the lies,
and the hatred in me is the one
who counts every wasted breath and my countless sighs.

I search in my soul
for answers to the questions
I’m not ready to face,
or answers I care to not to hear.

I seam to have found fear,
my fire from within.
Fire that burns the coals of my love for you,
in fear of losing you.
The fire that burns endless embers of anger,
in fear I will lose me.