We used to be so happy
Back in those early days
He told me he loved me
And I realized I felt the same

We've had our ups and down
Loud fights and silent ones
But each time we made it through

Control

Everything’s involvement
Has changed the world around
Making me believe things are different
That nothing is sound

From new lives to discovered lies
We shift through the days

Here we go again
Through the route one more time
Some other girl is giving you looks
And begging for a line

But I’ll try my best to trust you
Because it’s happened before

Pieces torn apart
Ripped out from his soul
And the only one I have to blame
Is me and my role

I ignored him for days
For something less dramatic
And I hate myself for what I did

You said you were over it
Then how come you never speak
How is it I’m silently waiting
To see you even breathe
I wanted to believe
That we were friends again
Because it seemed
Like it was over before
But now I know the truth
I can see you, hiding
Ignoring me in your shell
And I know I don’t deserve that
Not when I’ve tried so hard
To keep this relationship alive

When people look at me
They don’t understand
Who I am
And where I’ve been
Looking into my past I cry
Thinking about all the people
Who’ve made me this way
Teasing and lying
Being mean to me all this time
Am I that weird
To have people look at me that way
With their brows furrowed
And their smiles upside down
Makes me feel dirty and all alone
But things are different now

Living in a crazy world
Grasping at the straws that lay before me
My mind’s filled with random thoughts
In my existence and being
Nothing ever seems to make sense
Used to, but not anymore
Why should I care
What for
Because I happen
To care for this world
For the people inside
I can hear them
Crying, laughing, and sighing within
Their very core
To me, they meant everything

Frozen icicles
Drip down from her eyes
Waiting for death
To silently arrive
She found herself waiting
In the pure white snow
For her love to come
And her soul to glow
He never came
As she stood there in the cold
She vowed she would wait
And her disposition grew old
Hours passed
Snow piled on her skin
Yet she heard nothing
Outside or in
No one knew she left

Fingernails scrape against her skin
Forcing her to remember the pain
Brings her back to reality
A place she wants saved
Fantasy is so much better
Than the world she’s in
Every night she wishes
That she could live within
She’ll dream of a world
Outside her own
Shuts out the world
Drowns out the pain
And believes
That she can tolerate it
For just another day