Def poetry Jam INSPIRED Freestyle #2 Version 2
Please don’t tell me you already made your mind up about me
as I walked through the door you saw my outward and were on the offense automatically
You are you and I am I there is no telling how far I walked or how much struggle you suffered
At least between you or I
Maybe it’s the other way around?
You look at my hair the color of my eyes
and make your fixated judgments maybe I should dye
my hair black
and get some brown eye contacts
then we will see how far you go with that
The color of my eyes may seem green on the outside
but that is my defense my disguise
The color hides what’s truly inside
maybe I wake up and forget that I ever forgave all that’s been forgiven by me.
Maybe I choose to live the way society
tells me
I should be
I should hold grudges and have this dark side.
Wear black so I can purposely look depressed
because truly its society whom I have been oppressed
You will see what you want to see
never entirely
the truth
because the truth is hidden internally.
Maybe I should walk around like all you others
without a smile smothered
in repress and
depress my heart
because that is what seems to be the trend.
What I’m trying to help you understand
is that my past hasn’t been butterflies and white sand
I didn’t grow up with the fear of a gun to my head
but I grew up without a father or a mother
without friends
because I was always tossed around
I was my friend I was my enemy
I was the burden seemed
to be forcefully
brought up on everybody, anybody
at least then that is how it felt.
I grew up without an identity
no real last name to cling to.
I had to run away to feel safe at times as long as I wasn’t here or THERE under a bridge seemed more conveniently.
This isn’t a work meant for pity
its to show people that outward appearance isn’t an identity
maybe for some but NEVER ME.
I’m a Strong Woman maybe light complected but that has nothing to do
with what I am or even who.
Instead of looking at judgment as intelligence
see it as ignorance
and save it for a lesser intellect.
